The sky is doing exactly what it’s always done. It’s me that changed.
I had some big dreams when I was a child, some of which I will be writing about here because they are a huge part of the whole me. I remember the first time I saw a hot air balloon on TV. I was in awe and I decided it was something I wanted to do when I got “grown”.
I just booked a hotel for the Balloon Fiesta in Albuquerque, NM this fall… giving myself permission to actualize this childhood dream.
I’ve done that with a couple other dreams over the past few years and they didn’t work out the way I pictured, but God has bigger and better than anything I could dream.
Looking back on these lil pieces of me, I realize I spent a lot of time in the future as a child. Always hoping for something better. I still do at times. No one taught me that life was lived in the present; not in wishing for future moments to be better than the one you’re in.
I no longer feel like I’m chasing something out in the distance, but like I’m finally meeting a version of myself I had left waiting in that corner of my mind.
If you’ve been reading my blog over the short time it’s been live, you may notice that I’m in an in-between space. In fact, I’m getting comfortable living in this unclear space of not knowing… just trusting.
So maybe this moment is different.
Not because the dream changed…but because I did.
And I’m starting to understand that the decisions I make in the present are what lay the foundation for what’s ahead.
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.”
Jeremiah 29:11 (NLT)
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